A parable I keep coming back to, popularized by Alan Watts – the story of the Chinese farmer. A story that serves as a continuous reminder to remain open and curious, rather than certain and overly confident about how things ought to be. /// Once upon a time there was a Chinese farmer whose horse […]

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Who is the one that can deploy love when life is seemingly unmanageable and feels all consuming? Thoughts at 3:20 am in the mt hood national forest. Sleepless and my body feeling so tired from still recovering from being sick and trying to care for three kids while my wife is home sick. I’m exhausted. […]

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To be great, there must be constant work.  I’ve subscribed to this idea that there should be balance.  In some respects, sure. But really, most people abuse the notion of balance. They really want non-work.  I do. I’ve also often felt like things shouldn’t feel so difficult.  Or take so long. Inhaling the potent fumes […]

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Going through this second round of True and False Magic (by Phil Stutz). It’s the good kind of déjà vu. Reminders that patience wins. That acceptance of life’s pain, uncertainty, and need for constant work produces progress in the direction of real living. Steadiness can merge with action and to unroot the truth behind the […]

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An infinity pool of activity Quelling anxiety  Fleeting peace My mind is both a problem solving machine And the creator of to dos If I can’t solve one I can solve some And the control feels good, but still weighs a ton Momentary relief settles before I grab again for the pen and articulate My need […]

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