High Church

The idea of high church is traditionally guided by a belief that formality and uniformity are most important to a connection to/with the Divine. It’s a structure, a container meant for facilitating order. River (Nick) and I both attended a popular Christian liberal arts University in southern CA and were roommates. We studied biblical and […]

But I cried more

(from my notes on my phone when Beau was born) Most of my life growing up I was a sensitive kid. What I mean by “sensitive” is that I expressed my emotions, mainly sad or ones that caused me to cry, easily and freely. I didn’t feel a lot of resistance to my body’s natural […]

Pass It

When we hold on to something too long, past its time of maturation, a process of expiration will inevitably take place. It’s not impossible to go forward after this. It’s just more difficult, in my experience. There are windows of Time we are given to learn, grow, expand and live in a certain Mode of […]

Nachos with Kirsten

Kirsten and I got out for a day-date on Saturday. We went to Mexican food spot that is one of our favorites, in the neighborhood we lived 2.5 months in, before moving back to Hillsboro. This was our conversation. We hit record on my iphone because we kept having these talks randomly while out or […]

Beginner’s Mind

I was inspired by the recent Michael Jordan documentary series released on ESPN during covid-19. I grew up watching Michael Jordan, but not much. I had his reversible black/red jersey in 7-year-old boy size. I LOVED Space Jam. I knew Mike was the man, but basketball wasn’t really my thing. I played hockey growing up […]

Living Holy Week

This one got away from me as I was putting this together. There’s a few ideas with sub-ideas branching from them. Inspired by texts with friends and conversations with my wife leading up to and on the day-of Easter Sunday. ———————– Spiritually-charged-memorialized- moments are like tattoos on the Soul. They are Ebenezers, to borrow from […]

Don’t cling to me

(Another random collection of thoughts) There’s a deep, energetic… almost oceanic… push and pull, breathing. In and Out. Something rhythmic to the search for one’s own path. I’ve stumbled into beauty more times than I can keep track of. Feels like a daily practice at this point. That surge of Knowing, knowing itself in and […]

Your Unborn Face

This is a fragmented post I wrote late one night. It’s made up of different conversations I had with friends, namely Nick and Tim. Also talks I shared with my wife. I was thinking the other day of Beau’s conception. Not like the actual act of conceiving Beau, although that was great also! I was […]

Body

There’s a nine pound newborn sleeping in our bedroom down the hall. Cooing and grunting in a bassinet next to my wife, this small stranger currently resembles me more than her. It’s uncontested that his lips are his mother’s. It’s an alien phenomenon… to glimpse a couple-of-hours-old baby and know at the deepest level it’s […]

john

There are sounds that wake you up, even when your eyes are open. Your heart, the depth of your life, is pulled to the surface. Anything stagnant is stirred at once. These moments happen often, though we don’t realize them. They happen despite our paying attention. Directing our eyes with fierce conviction that this event […]